Apparently Unaffected

Do you like to see me broken?

Poor little missunderstood baby, no one likes a sad face...
I can't remember life without him
I think I did have good days... I think I did have good days


I just poured my heart out
there's bits of it on the floor
and I take whats left of it
and rinse it under cold water
and call him up for more
I said 'Baby, yes I feel stupid to call you but im lonely
and I didn't think you meant it when you said you couldn't love me
and I thought maybe if i kiss the way you do
you'd feel it too'
He grabs my wirsts as my fingers turn into angry fists
and I wisper 'why cant you love me ill change for you...
ill play the part'
He said 'I'm sorry, so sorry'

I've run out of complicated theories

so now i'm taking back my words

I'm preparing for the breakdown.

don't act like you dont know me

it's still me I never change, i'll be here when you come back

Sine Qua Non

Halcyonic in a dystopian society.

RESITS R OVAA!!!!!!!!!1111111111

Economics- Pretty happy, multiple choice was gay B?

History- ALLOW!!! C if im really fucking lucky.

Mechanics- Really good except a few big markers! B?

English- Pretty satisfied. B/A?

Lets not confused that with 'exams' which are most definetly NOT over.

I feel like I should be jet-setting, travelling, running through the streets, seeing EVERYONE I know, raving, clubbing, essentially never coming home.

However.

The Volksgemeinschaft and other such fun things that i've been putting on hold need to be done.

The stress of Alevels is only just beginning... insidious.

Got drunk the night before my last exam. which actually worked wonders.

best Roast Dinner EVER. I almost felt to cry with happiness... but I obviously didn't... that would be weird.

EVEN MORE GOOD NEWS!!!

Cookie

'I am not fat... I went jogging today and yesterday...
I took my mum to Bungalow 8 last night we got totally hammered.
I took mushrooms with her once on a boat party! She loves weed too.
She's amazing you would like her she's completely bonkers.'

QUOD?

DIVA

http://www.matchesfashion.com/

'You seem to be quite morbid. You and Hardy make a good duo'

I feel like a proud mother to all the people I know that got into Cambridge this week. =)
nuff luv

New iphone means no old numbers or texts, i'm slowly getting them back but obviously there are certain numbers that I will never have again.. ehem.
but I think that's a good thing, because it's a new year and all that so maybe I should just stop thinking about all the people that i'm not friends with anymore. no excuse not to move on.


My circle of friends are the size of a fucking THIMBLE. Quod the fuck? why does everyone know everyone?

Best text conversation EVER this week.
EG:
'Wait, before we go any further, do you consider my propensity for divulgence as a characteristic of someone who is, for lack of a better word, emotionally "easy"? '

'Auden is my home boy, I spit his rhymes in my sleep. but TS Eliot is da shit when I really wanna get heavy.'

'You have an unfortunte tendency/ability to indirectly imply " fuck off" in your texts.' (remind you of anyone?)

'Why dispel my self-aggrandising messianic illusion?'

'Why do you need to turn inconsequentialities into calcium?'

exams next week =\\\ lolocoaster

Hatti's 18th

MASKED BALL

Train. Hog Roast(Cute hog boy!) Dancing. Singing... screaming. 'I like what you've done with your eyes'. Malt Wine. Coach.Oxford stop off. Finsbury Park. Home @4am

FOREVER YOUNG

school. :(

New Years Eve

muswell hill. TEQUILLA. 'I don't think I like your principles.' jd. 'Lets see your mercedes'
'Do you know where Q Tip is making a very special request??????'
'Everyone on this bus is a PUSSY'

pissing between cars. ex boyfriends brothers ex girlfriend. count down. £20 taxi. 'oh my god! hey'

'I'm just gonna go do a line of cocaine'

'Have fun with that'

'I just don't believe that you're a virgin, that's all.'

walking. walking.

'Ok fine go in the middle of the street then'

'I was DJing here earlier.'
'You and your war-torn self!'

Glass of water. Kitchen counter.

'Lets talk about the origins of WWI'

'It's settled then, Hitler was a total bastard'

Woke up at 8am to the sound of 'I think my ex-girlfriend is outside'

'Was I really drunk when I asked for your number?'

'Yes'

Ruined 'no excessive drinking' resolution within the first 3 hours of 2010

(Happy?) New Year!

'Did we have sex earlier?'
'No.'

It's 2pm and im still a bit drunk

New Years Resolutions:
lets recap on last years from my old diary :

1) Get him or get over him
2) Revise for your a-levels
3) You DO NOT have a high tolerance to alcohol STOP DRINKING
4) Don't buy clothes you dont need
5) Save some face you skanky bitch
6) Save up
7) Take up a sport you FAT SHIT
8) Don't lead boys on if you know you wouldn't go out with them
9) See the silver fucking lining
10) Get a good campaign

I think they stay word for word exactly the same